cooking^^

dry chili pork....


My brother favourites food,
he likes dry chili stuff and black pepper stuff.
Me too^^
THis was my first time to cook the pork stuff.
Ingredient:
easy but need a lot of cooking skill.
Oyster sauce, black soya sauce, and others.
My brother appreciate that,
but he want a better sticky and black sauce next time,
look like those food cook in the restaurant.
Well, i will improve it next time,
see it then...

christmas eve + christmas ..^^

What is the meaning of christmas?
Presents, the gifts , the christmas tree, the bells,
the snow, the santa claus, and the turkey?
The true answer was:
Remembering the birth of our saviour:
Jesus Christ.

ERm....Yesterday i lead the caroling song..
nervous but i feel nice.
hehe.....
Today, i went up kuantan meet my ex-brother, Jeremy.
And Jasher misunderstood that i wanna got married?
Har?
The real bride was Eunice la......
The fake news almost made Jasher fainted.
HE almost got heartattack.
Jesse, Justin, Joshua, Michelle, and the kids were there.
.They grew more even cuter now..


I so hoped my father was right beside me now,
celebrated christmas with us.
Alone in KL, i am so worried about him,
but thank God he understand the true meaning of christmas.
Not just only receiving gift, but is to receive God blessing.
MErry Christmas and have a happy new year.
I love you daddy, mummy, and Stanley..
Muacksssss...............

painful

i feeling not well today..
WHen i woke up, my head was so pain, it dragged me to vomit.
Somehow, i drank many water, but then it all vomitted out.
I am so weak and headpain, my mum asked me to help grandma cooked.
But when i went down, i almost fainted..
The vision infront of me was so blur,
it was the incident when i was 15 years old.
I fall from the staircase in school, luckily kim was beside me.
However, she couldn't hold me, barely, i hurt my head.
Because during that time, my head went to bang the staircase holder.
IT was the most embarrasing moment in my school time.
erm...my head was really pain, i couldn't ate anything,
because whenever the food and the water that i had taken,
all had vomitted out...Lately, my body was very weak.
But now, i feel much more better. Alright..

because of u..

somehow......my life return to normal again....
without love, without being love by someone anymore..
of course...feeling sad,
lonely and exhausted.
After met you the last time,
my anger to you had fade away.
i no longer angry you for what you had done for me,
indeed, i feel my heart was on you.
may be i only love bad boy?
i am so regret,
because i had miss the chances to hug you.
truly regreted..
may be you will say i am stupid, but then this is what i feel.
Hopefully, i will get a hug and a kiss from you one day.

we had been together for 500 days.
27/7/09 - 8/12/09.
Friendship never end, this is what i hope.
Love you......

good bye malacca..

Countdown, still have 6 more days,
then i am able to visit malacca...especially A famosa.
However, everything become a dust...
I cant sleep well during the night,
because my brain is keep thinking.
Goodbye malacca...goodbye A famosa....
Hopefully there was no rain during your's whole trip,
i will pray hardly for that..
Take care.....

The amazing experience

When i was 10, i attended to a children church camp.
Recalling in that camp, i saw one's of my pray and cry at the same time.
i wonder and whispered myself, was anything wrong?
After the prayer, i asked my friend about the happening,
and she told me something was filled in her heart & the tears keep flowing from her eyes,
while she in prayer.
I wonder, hw she can get that feeling? and i am not?
This question had followed me many years until when i was 16.
I attended a youth camp(HUGE camp)
i knew many friends(LI ann, rufus , sin e, jeremy and many more)
During the consert and prayer session,
Li ann tears keep flowing down, again....
while rufus laughing non stop.....due to holy spirit touching..




Later on, i asked them the question that i had curious for many years.
She told me it was the holy spirit touched her heart, make her tears automatically
coming out. It wasn't crying, it is the holy spirit works.



What is holy spirit?
Holy spirit live in each everyone of us ,
when we had invited Jesus into our lives.
Jesus has returned to Father God but He had sent us
the holy spirit to live in us and be our teacher and guide us
till He comes again to this world.


wow, holy spirit can touch us through various ways:
By laughing, crying?
Of course, i want to get that feeling one day, and yet, miracles happen in me..


In the 2nd day in Huge camp, while praying session,
something special happen to me, i dont know how to describe the feeling,
but it was unususal, my tears start flowing down from my eyes,
and i can see something through my prayer....
What i had saw was a picture of a big hand holding the Earth..
What that means?
till today, i still did finding the answer....
After the prayer, i feel absolutely different,
felt walking into a whole new world,
and felt like i'm living, really living and life had begun afresh.
Did you all had this experience before?
This is how the holy spirit touch my heart, holy spirit fill me.
I hope My lover, family and friends could experience this,
because it is truly amazing and wonderful feeling.
Somehow, He makes you different...Amen

raining

Yesterday, there was a heavy downpour,
the roof area of my house was flooded..
it was looked like a pool..
my bro and i sweep the water to the hole that have stuck with leaf.
Finally, we able to clear all the water.

the weather is cold and wet...
suddenly, i feel so lonely..........
lonely.......
phone is quiet...
no message...
no phone call...
no inbox...
lonely and painful(in my mouth)...
when i apply the medicine,
it was so painful...like hell...
i hope this feeling would't come to me again...
never ever...
both feelings....
i hate it....................