love..

Love is the moments that last forever...

and i believe, LOVE can be waited......

Be faithful, do not turn back....

sharing moment..

13/9/10 and 17/9/10

The day of the sharing moment,
viewing the panaroma of the sea,
enjoying the breezing view,
touching the white and smooth sand,
sharing the background and the feeling of me....

It was nice....


It might be my future.....

the presence of Lord ...

During the prayer session in the church camp 2 days ago,
pastor eng cheng ,
she prayed for me...
i know, i need more strength,
i need more knowledge,
i need more courage to face everything,
all the tribulation and fear in my life.
i need not worried and
i need You O Lord.
So sudden, my tears dropped tremendously,
flow nonstoply...
Yes...the holy spirit filled me again...
For so long, i never experienced that,
and that day, i feel the new of me again,
after the prayer,
i feel so relieve, feel so fresh, feel ...
i dont know how to describe,
because the feeling is special and different.
I love you, Jesus...
thanks you for Your holy spirit...

i need strength ..

I must think positive,
I must not cry ,
I must be hardworking,
I need strength O Lord,
Strengthen me....
She need me right now....





I know, everthing will be alrite...
Everything will be okey....
Yes, it will be.......




Smile..

this wasn't my month...

While i in the camp, yes, i got a nice bedroom,
with aircond and own bathroom,
nice food...nice facilities....
but....
going for the same module,
wasting my time, and my phone was stolen,
everything couldn't replace my phone...
all my contact list, all the precious stuff in my phone...
all gone.....



plus, today, i received a call from my friend,
saying that i wasn't in the rm1000 list....for the stpm students,
my heart, seriously couldn't accept this,
everything was too sudden...
my body and my heart couldn't able to hold all this ...


and....bad news heard from someone....
everything was too sudden...
is there anyone for me ?
i need a big hug, and a shoulder to cry,
i afraid, i couldn't accept all this,
and go for doing something crazy,
i was so weak, until......
i couldn't breath,
i hope everything will be okey....

new dress...

date : 20/7/2010
After supervising mami to visit the doctor,
we went to the kuantan parade.
I went through so many boutique shop,
their dresses were almost the same designed,
and is not interesting.
Anyway, i tried my best to find the nicest dress.

This could be the nice dress,
my mum like it anyway,
and she asked me to buy it,
i refuse anyway,
because, it still not my desirable dress,
although it looked nice .
Fluffly white ......



And yet, i bought this black dress.
I could say, i satisfied with the designed,
because it looked elegance.
Suitable for clubbling, attending wedding event and so on.
It cost me Rm60..
Quite expensive hor..


Black dress + killing heels = perfect

After woring it....abit sexy i think.....exposes too much...omg..

This dress make me look mature...and more femine

abm camp

Date : 5-8 july 2010
place: Akademi Binaan Malaysia Wilayah Timur, Jenagor, Hulu Terengganu
The front view of the place.
First day :

My cLASSmate and i..

2nd day....This is our dorm mates..Luckily, i wasn't stayed in 30ppl in a room.

My friend, especially the malay girl who wore the spec, she is the big fans of korean pop star.

huei huei and i...she is the only chinese girl from terengganu...

In this whole camp, only 3 of us are chinese...

During the whole camp, i am tired...tired..

I couldn't bath well,

i couldn't sleep well,

and i miss my bed...my bathroom..

Anyway, i learned somethings here,

the way to answer the Stpm questions.

Besides, i enjoyed the food here...

Their special blended 'sambal belacan'

That's all i could store my memory here..

and the new friends that i met here...

Miss them too..

muet result...

muet result?
omg...hate it....still got 3 more marks,
i can reach band 4 dy....
really geram ar...
but i really satisfied my speaking skill result.
38/45....



should i retake?









i still considering......

GoiNg t0 state camp...

Tomorrow, i will leave kemaman for 4 days,
I will going to attend the akademi stpm peringkat negeri trg.
I will miss my mum,
I will miss my laptop,
I will miss my bed,
I will miss my cousins,
I will miss everythings in my room.
And i will miss U..



Thank God, hui ling is accompany me to go there,
as i am not alone...






cheers....
the purpose of attending?
ans: just for study,
and not have fun....sob

the taste of sweet again....

Yesterday, i had spent some precious time with U..
Although it was just a hour,
but i really enjoy that moment.
I wish the time could just stop at that moment,
cheerish the warmth that u had given,
the hug that you had given,
even the kiss that you had given.
I promise, you are the best for me..
and i promise, you are the only one i need,
and i promise, i will never share anything with others.
is just for U.....
And i hope, i could be the best for you...








Now and forever......

































............................

awana trip

May be, this could be my last chance to join with u all...

Going to miss you all...

Although, i am not really close with you all,

but i enjoy every moment spending time with you all..

Thank you for a person that let me to join with you all.

Love you so much.

I know, sometimes you might be dislike the way i do,

but i am really appreciate every moment that can spend time with you.

But did you?





Before the night, i couldn't sleep at all,

my brain was running with lots lots of stuff,

i was confused,

whether wanna go or not.

Finally, i made a right decision.

But, througout the whole trip,

i feel tired and whole body was exhausted,

because i did not sleep for a whole night.

Even, i din talked much.

But i enjoyed....^^

with the girlszs.....going to miss them...

......the guys.....too much of feelings on you......

the 90's gangs that i really have fun with you all.....

emotyness

Well, this 2 weeks holiday for me is
just like empty.
Besides working, i couldn't find something
to fill my heart.
The emptyness of my heart...
My mood is unhappy,
something is missing....
i realise...
People always asked me,
Do u have a boyfriend?
well, is that important?
what is the purpose of having a bf?
Sometimes, i always asking myself,
did i really need a bf,
indeed, my heart was still on someone.
and i trying to forget,
but i couldn't....even a single day.
i know, people will say i am stupid,
not worth it to do this,
not because of the reason of worthyness,
but i have choosen to love.
Love can be good and bad.
Once you have drop into the love trap,
you can't even escape it...

sad.

Sad....feeling really hurt......
the inner of my heart was tired and hurt..
i have no idea whats wrong with you.
You have been ignoring me for so long,
but i miss you alot....
my heart cant stop me from missing you.
Are you trying to escape from me?
If the answer is yes,
do to tell me,
and i wont disturb u again...
because i wont let my tears to drop again.
because of u....
again....
is because of u...

holiday.....

Holiday?
Well, for me, holiday is working...
tiring...but wat to do...
i have to earn money to spend..hehe
I love my work the best is when i can
talk with the customers,
guide them to the nice place in kemaman,
which food is good, which place is nice..
i am just like a tourist guide...
such a wonderful feeling..
When i feel bored,
i can go for swimming, enjoying myself.
with a sparkling juice beside the pool,
that could be perfect..
Love it...


During this week, i am working ....
Work , work and work....
Tired....i feel really tired...
But thank God, i met xiu qi and wen xi(singaporean)
I become their kemaman guider,
bringing them to taste the haipeng coffee,
the ai mei jie curry mee...
they loved kemaman fish and keropok so much.
I hope they will like it...
wen xi is a general doctor in singapore,
she own 2 son, tang jie and tang kai,
they are so adorable,
while xiu qi is a graduate student.
They brought me 2 books from singapore,
hope i can finish it within this holiday.
I loved my holiday....


But the worse things when i worked was ...
facing a LC malay girl,
i hate her character,
she is so fake until i realise her truth .
At first, i was regret because i treating her so good,
bluetooth new song for her,
but what she responding is?
Betraying?
Being so rude?
What the...
i hate malay....especially....lazy malay...
Working, working la,
why still texting message while many customer .
Lazy like a pig man...hate it....

Goodbye my babe...my baby car..

I had already spend a month with my babe,
every morning, i will drive him to a walk,
Many places i had been with my babe,
from the beach to the shore,
from the school to home,
from the store to kemaman station.
Yet, i couldn't let him go,
as he could bring me to any places that i want.
I want him back, but my dad force me to let him go.
Oh...my babe...thank you for training up my driving skill,
i could say that, my driving skill is improving tremendously.
Good bye my babe, i will miss u....my lovely car...

muet muet muet...

Before the day of the exam,
i couldn't sleep for the whole night.
Why my brain always wanna to torture me?
make me nervous and freezee....
Luckily, i didn't feel tired the next day.
I am able to answer all the exam questionS,
listening, reading, and writting skill ,
all settled.
Now, just left speaking skill.
Hopefully, i can overcome my nervousness,
and control my heart beat..beepboop beepboop.STOP

Train more and needed to sharpen my speaking skill.
Yes..i can do it.. ^^

LIBRARY( the place where we met)

Every moment, every memory will just stop at this place.

Our loves had begin in this place.
The first encounter with you,
in this place.
Listen carefully to all your teaching,
in this place.
When you hold my hand,
i had surrender all my life to you.
No matter what things had happened,
my love to you will never fade,
until the every end.

1st time drive alone..

My dad finally put down his worriedness
and let me drove his car.
This is the first time i drive and fetch my friend.
Hui ling and i, we went to jalan jalan
and went to the beach.
I was excited..and nervous.
Hopefully my driving skill will improve.
Everytime, i will pray before i drive.
Happy >.<

Feelings and faitfullness

The Lord is merciful, faithful and righteous.
Yea, thats true.
Well, compare with man,
God is loyal and faithful.
And his love feeling will never change
and remains faithful.
Although we sometimes falter in our faith
and question God's love for us,
He remains faithful.
Even when we doubt His promises,
or don't feel close to Him, or choose to sin,
His faithfulness still "reaches to the clouds.
(Psalm 36:5)


By reading "Our Daily Bread",
1 things i learned today,
man can lose their feel to someone
in just by 3 days,
even they had spend plenty of times together.
and, man's faith wont last long..
Thats true....


Whenever i feel empty, sad and fear,
this verse had make me feel secure.
(In those times when you don't feel close to God,
remind yourself that His feelings for you haven't changed.
It's not a matter of how you feel at the moment,
but the fact of the rock-solid faithfulness of God.)




Our God is GOd-He does not change;
His truth and love remain the same.
He's faithful to His matchless name,
FOr God is God-He does not change.




Trusting God's faithfulness,
dispels our fearfulness.

Killing heel

My dream to have my own high heel,
finally, i able to got it.
I love it so much.
From NOse company,
damn expensive.
Well, i name it as
"killing heel"
Because, it was sexy yet elegance.

Guys

Are guys important?

WHen they need you, they will use various type of method to get u,

when they dun ned you, they will juz dump u..

Although for so long, i still cant forget about a guy,

my mind was kept thinking of him.

I feel tortured yet tedious.

May be i put too much effort into this relationship?

or i too loves him?

My life......turning upside down....

How they can be so cruel?

without sympathy or sophisticated?

I feel that, i wont started a new relationship with any guy,

unless i am totally forgot about him...

my mind...oh my mind....why still keep thinking about him?

he had done so cruel things to you, why u still keep thinking bout him?

May be i am not the right person for him,

or he still loves someone?

arrrrg......why i so care about that?

is none my business now.....

I should let him go, i should let him free....

but i cant, why why.....

and now....i need you , and i will never let you go....until the very end.

oh my dad's car...

That's a big matter, my father met a small accident.
The kancil was suddenly brake and without giving any signal,
then turn to the right.
AT the same time, my dad's car kiss the backed of the kancil.
My dad thought that the kancil will make a police report,
but the kancil driver moved away speedily.
My dad believed the car might not be owned by the driver.
THe front of the car was damage seriously,
but i thanked God as my father wasn't got hurt at all.
Yes, he was mentally hurt because he was sad about his car.
For many years travelling from the east coast to the west coast,
in a business line, from kelantan to KL,
it was the 1st time his car got hurted.
My dad was extremely sad and he couldn't slept for the whole night.
As a daughter, i let him to watch some comedy ,
at least can make him feel better.
I would like to give thanks to Lord for everything,
for He had protected my dad from getting any hurts,
for He put shelter on him.
Let Your name will be glorify,
Amen.





The view of the car ..

KT visiting & accidentally meet up with the astronaut

2 days ago, we went to the KT book fair at thePusat dagangan.
We thought it could be a big conference plus super nice books,
but it was just a very common book fair.
Finally, we end up by buying nothing..
Later on, we went to the planetarium.
Througout the whole journey,
i could say that it was fun and exciting.
Because there was laughter and joking
througout the whole journey.



Did i looked like a astronaut?

we were trying to solve the problems..

LUnch time....we went to Giant mall and took F4 girls at the escalator.

Say cheese...girl.

We were too naughty until we grabbed the fun of the kids in order to take pictures.

wakakakaa.....

Toilet of the mcdonald..nice...

Almost reached the time to back..

Fortunately, we heard someones said the astronaut were infront of the hall.

We were shocked, and immediately went to the hall.

Fuyoh....the hall was packed and congested.

We were asked to sit on the last 2 roll.

The astronaut, Dr Sheikh Mustapha was sharing his experience

while he was in the space.

Well, i learned lots of things thru his experience.

The way he drink, was without using a cup,

he need to fill in the liquid in a plastik and drink with straw.

Because as the water was in the space, it wasn't

in a liquid state, it was in a solid state, looked like a

crystal ball, a small molecules.

Similarly, the water molecules will damage the spaceshot machines

if the molecules were break and scattered around.

They cannot bring rice into the space,

because rice will expand.

How they took their favourite raya kuih?

Well, the nasi beriani, nasi minyak were all packed and

compress into the tupat shape...

He shared lot of things , about how to become a astronaut?,

the requirement to become a astronaut, and many else.

He was the role model of our nation . Proud of him..

See....his body was strong and very fit..As he drew nearly , most of us

were started to shiver. The picture was taken away from me was about 30cm.

HEhe, christopher was jealous as i could able to take self capture picture with him.

In a very quick movement, i snapped the picture.

This could be a wonderful memory .

CNY + valentine

Many things had happend througout this chinese new year holiday.
I found that most of my friends had changed.
Infact, not only the way of their clothing, but also their attitude.
Somes even changed, to a someone that i couldn't even knew him anymore.
Friends, not longer the friends that i had knowed in the past few years.
Everything is changed.
Welcome to the realistic world...




During the first day of the chinese new year,
which on 14/2/10, same date as the valentine's day.
Unexpectedly, i received a bouquet of flower.
What a surprise!!!!!!
That time, my feeling was:
erm..nice flower...
later on, no more feeling..
i dont know why, may be i had been told
by one of my friend, roses couldnt last long.
Infact, that's true, within 1 week, the flower
had turned black..turned into black roses..
a mystery roses...hehe
Well, who is the guy?
Is a secret....XOXO

11 roses......what does it means?

During the chinese new year, i went Bainian with my friends.

PICTURES!!!...this is what girls always do...>.<

M3....

Hui jun and me

carr men and me...

my brother and me...

chin lin and me....

yee sin and me....

painting...

Feeling excited and thrilling because my heart was going to paint the wall.
However, things turned bad and my mood gone down when i couldn't
opened the paint.
In fact, i asked my cousin to lend me a hand.
We used almost 1 hour to open the new paint,
it was very hard to open.
We used various type of methods,
and finally end up by using screw driver and a hammer.
It was really........pheww.....
Later on, i painted the first layer,
and continued with the second layer.
I couldn't believed my painting skill was so good...
Sincerely...
You knowed why?
Because the painting colour was balanced and
without different colour spot.
However, i feel tired and exhausted.
I so hope my brother and father were here in
helping me doing all the heavy stuff .
Sometimes, i even feel tired and
need a man in my house in order to help
me doing all the guy's work.
I can truly say that,
i am doing all the housework by myself all the time!!!
I hate housework as it wasted my time, my energy
and i am really really tiring.....tired....tired of my lifes..
I am sick of it.....tired of being a maid....

new stuff...

I bought a pair of sandals, crocs brand.
HOHOHO...i loved it so much...
Seriously, i love the colour,
the mild pinky plus the oceanic blue ,
it was perfectly match.
Can you guess the price? This is the second stuff.
The converse handbag....
This was my first time to own a branded and a nice bag.
I wasn't thought to have a new handbag,
but the bag attracted me.
I loved the colours and the designed.
It looked sporty and simple.
The bag had 4 choices, either
pink &grey, blue&grey, black &grey or white &grey.
Finally, i choosed the white and grey bag.
Hui lin had the same bag colour as mine too,
but his bag is more bigger than me.
We loved our bag so much...
At the same time, our bag had promotion,
i bought it for RM39.90.
The original priced was RM59.90

Converse babes , haha, showing off....XD

I feel happy, grateful and can't wait to use it now...desperately..

But 1 thing about the white colour is,

it easy to get dirty and i must take care it well..

Is worth it....