the presence of Lord ...

During the prayer session in the church camp 2 days ago,
pastor eng cheng ,
she prayed for me...
i know, i need more strength,
i need more knowledge,
i need more courage to face everything,
all the tribulation and fear in my life.
i need not worried and
i need You O Lord.
So sudden, my tears dropped tremendously,
flow nonstoply...
Yes...the holy spirit filled me again...
For so long, i never experienced that,
and that day, i feel the new of me again,
after the prayer,
i feel so relieve, feel so fresh, feel ...
i dont know how to describe,
because the feeling is special and different.
I love you, Jesus...
thanks you for Your holy spirit...

i need strength ..

I must think positive,
I must not cry ,
I must be hardworking,
I need strength O Lord,
Strengthen me....
She need me right now....





I know, everthing will be alrite...
Everything will be okey....
Yes, it will be.......




Smile..

this wasn't my month...

While i in the camp, yes, i got a nice bedroom,
with aircond and own bathroom,
nice food...nice facilities....
but....
going for the same module,
wasting my time, and my phone was stolen,
everything couldn't replace my phone...
all my contact list, all the precious stuff in my phone...
all gone.....



plus, today, i received a call from my friend,
saying that i wasn't in the rm1000 list....for the stpm students,
my heart, seriously couldn't accept this,
everything was too sudden...
my body and my heart couldn't able to hold all this ...


and....bad news heard from someone....
everything was too sudden...
is there anyone for me ?
i need a big hug, and a shoulder to cry,
i afraid, i couldn't accept all this,
and go for doing something crazy,
i was so weak, until......
i couldn't breath,
i hope everything will be okey....

new dress...

date : 20/7/2010
After supervising mami to visit the doctor,
we went to the kuantan parade.
I went through so many boutique shop,
their dresses were almost the same designed,
and is not interesting.
Anyway, i tried my best to find the nicest dress.

This could be the nice dress,
my mum like it anyway,
and she asked me to buy it,
i refuse anyway,
because, it still not my desirable dress,
although it looked nice .
Fluffly white ......



And yet, i bought this black dress.
I could say, i satisfied with the designed,
because it looked elegance.
Suitable for clubbling, attending wedding event and so on.
It cost me Rm60..
Quite expensive hor..


Black dress + killing heels = perfect

After woring it....abit sexy i think.....exposes too much...omg..

This dress make me look mature...and more femine

abm camp

Date : 5-8 july 2010
place: Akademi Binaan Malaysia Wilayah Timur, Jenagor, Hulu Terengganu
The front view of the place.
First day :

My cLASSmate and i..

2nd day....This is our dorm mates..Luckily, i wasn't stayed in 30ppl in a room.

My friend, especially the malay girl who wore the spec, she is the big fans of korean pop star.

huei huei and i...she is the only chinese girl from terengganu...

In this whole camp, only 3 of us are chinese...

During the whole camp, i am tired...tired..

I couldn't bath well,

i couldn't sleep well,

and i miss my bed...my bathroom..

Anyway, i learned somethings here,

the way to answer the Stpm questions.

Besides, i enjoyed the food here...

Their special blended 'sambal belacan'

That's all i could store my memory here..

and the new friends that i met here...

Miss them too..

muet result...

muet result?
omg...hate it....still got 3 more marks,
i can reach band 4 dy....
really geram ar...
but i really satisfied my speaking skill result.
38/45....



should i retake?









i still considering......

GoiNg t0 state camp...

Tomorrow, i will leave kemaman for 4 days,
I will going to attend the akademi stpm peringkat negeri trg.
I will miss my mum,
I will miss my laptop,
I will miss my bed,
I will miss my cousins,
I will miss everythings in my room.
And i will miss U..



Thank God, hui ling is accompany me to go there,
as i am not alone...






cheers....
the purpose of attending?
ans: just for study,
and not have fun....sob

the taste of sweet again....

Yesterday, i had spent some precious time with U..
Although it was just a hour,
but i really enjoy that moment.
I wish the time could just stop at that moment,
cheerish the warmth that u had given,
the hug that you had given,
even the kiss that you had given.
I promise, you are the best for me..
and i promise, you are the only one i need,
and i promise, i will never share anything with others.
is just for U.....
And i hope, i could be the best for you...








Now and forever......

































............................

awana trip

May be, this could be my last chance to join with u all...

Going to miss you all...

Although, i am not really close with you all,

but i enjoy every moment spending time with you all..

Thank you for a person that let me to join with you all.

Love you so much.

I know, sometimes you might be dislike the way i do,

but i am really appreciate every moment that can spend time with you.

But did you?





Before the night, i couldn't sleep at all,

my brain was running with lots lots of stuff,

i was confused,

whether wanna go or not.

Finally, i made a right decision.

But, througout the whole trip,

i feel tired and whole body was exhausted,

because i did not sleep for a whole night.

Even, i din talked much.

But i enjoyed....^^

with the girlszs.....going to miss them...

......the guys.....too much of feelings on you......

the 90's gangs that i really have fun with you all.....

emotyness

Well, this 2 weeks holiday for me is
just like empty.
Besides working, i couldn't find something
to fill my heart.
The emptyness of my heart...
My mood is unhappy,
something is missing....
i realise...
People always asked me,
Do u have a boyfriend?
well, is that important?
what is the purpose of having a bf?
Sometimes, i always asking myself,
did i really need a bf,
indeed, my heart was still on someone.
and i trying to forget,
but i couldn't....even a single day.
i know, people will say i am stupid,
not worth it to do this,
not because of the reason of worthyness,
but i have choosen to love.
Love can be good and bad.
Once you have drop into the love trap,
you can't even escape it...